Well, last night I got some inspiration. Or rather, I got so freakin frustrated that it was either vent here or call one of y'all for bail money.
We have a crazy schedule around here. It changes almost daily. 5 of the kids are playing sports, all on different teams. One of them has 2 different sports over-lapping. And practice times change depending on gym availability, weather, how much the coaches hate me... No sir, not really. But sometimes it feels like they have secret meetings about how best to F with the Black Sheep family. "Let's leave only a 6 minute break between softball and basketball practice. Let's say we're done at 5:00 but not let the kids out until 5:40. Let's schedule softball and baseball games at the same time in different towns so the mom has to choose which kid she's going to watch; that ought to start some nice bickering in their house, mwah ha ha ha......" <<stress>>
So last night I was running around doing the pick up/drop off/pick up/drop off routine, with the added bonus of having a Sports Boosters meeting to go to (of which I am the vice-president. Dammit.) I couldn't figure out how to get the 13 year old picked up from basketball practice when I would already be at the meeting, and possibly running it. So she didn't go to practice. And for some reason that bothered me greatly. I HATE not being able to do it all. People often comment to me: "I don't know how you do it! So many kids involved in so many things, you must be supermom!" So when I can't figure out how to do everything at the same time, I feel like I'm failing. I feel like I'm letting a kid down if I'm not at their Everything. So I was stressing about that. <<stress>>
At the meeting I was a little on edge because there was someone there that I had had a bad experience with years ago regarding one of my sons. He clearly didn't remember who I was, but I knew him. I also had brought my 11 year old to the meeting with me because there wasn't time to bring him home after baseball and get back to the meeting on time. So he was sitting to the side doing homework and behaving very well; I just kept checking on him, waiting for him to misbehave (which he didn't). <<stress>>
I got out of the meeting about 8pm. I realized that I had forgotten to tell the hubs that there was something in the freezer that he could cook for dinner. Surely he could figure that out on his own. Surely he would look through the kitchen and make sure the kids got dinner. It was 8 at night on a school night.
I texted him to ask if anyone had eaten and his response was "Don't believe so". So not only did he not make anything for dinner, he didn't even tell the kids to find something or suggest sandwiches or anything. Nothing. Nada. Nichts. (That's nothing in German. I felt this paragraph needed a German word to properly convey the situation.) <<stress>>
So I had to go to the grocery store at 8 at night to get something for dinner. <<stress>
Corn dogs it is.
Nutritional value: nichts
My level of caring: also nichts
Corn dogs are pretty nasty, I think, but the kids love them. And they were quick and there was a large size box (complete necessity in a household the size of mine. I got 2 large boxes. And chips.)
Having a healthy hearty dinner was a complete fail. But I don't think that was my fail; it was the hubs' fail.
I was pretty flippin frustrated, as evidenced by the way I didn't speak to anyone and just immediately started nuking corn dogs and opening bags of chips. "Come eat guys; it's almost bedtime..." I called, not at all trying to make a point. <<stress>>
In conclusion, stress = corn dogs.